“My real life started when I was ten years old.” A grade 4 student answered the question “Who Am I?” At that time he was hiding the status of his gender. A lot of people wanted to discover his gender. But this grade 4 student tried to hold his principles in life not to reveal his secret.
After he discovered himself, he wanted to push his study. He started dreaming and planning for his future. His first dream is to become a priest to cover up his sin. What is that sin? Obviously being a closet queen. But sometimes he likes to be a doctor because he wants to take care of his grandma. His life goes on until he met his first best friend. The guy is very sweet and gentle. This guy helped him discover what the beauty of life is. He is an optimistic man at the age of 11. His mind is very open for the homosexuals and understands why homosexuals undergo such kind of situation.
From that “words of wisdom” coming from this guy, he learned his lessons and gave hope to other people who have the same thinking like his best friend. After that conversation he thought if he can reveal his secret to his best friend. But there were two things to consider, first if his best friend will accept him and second if he can still get his trust. In the middle of the night he decided not to tell his secret. According to his conscience there is time to reveal all the secrets. One day he found out that he fell in love with his best friend. When he realized that, he really regretted what he feels for his best friend. There were times he ignored him in school, street and church. One day his best friend cornered him at other side of the door in school then the best friend asked why you are like that. What’s wrong with you? He replied, I am gay I want to give up our friendship now. I’m in love with you. So now that you know my secret can you still accept me as your best friend? The guy was really shocked. After that accident the guy ended up the friendship.
He was really depressed for what happened but life must go on. After the school year, he went to Manila to continue his studies. He enrolled in public school in front of his aunt's house. He was scared how to communicate with new classmates, friends and teachers. His dialect is different with theirs. Little by little, he was able to master the tagalog language. He started to forget his best friend in the province. They had no communications at all. In the middle of the semester he met another guy. The incident happened when they had a school trip in Tagaytay for educational tour. The guy is good looking. He decided to regret the feelings. Instead he concentrated to his studies. Time went really fast. He graduated in the primary but he was not prepared for high school life. He thought that secondary life is the worst to happen.
Because of this disposition to pursue his study he tried to take entrance exam in different private schools but sad to say he never passed any exams. His mother decided to enroll him in public school. After those failures in life for not passing the exams his mind focused on his studies in secondary level. He never forgets his dreams and goals in life. But that time he was thinking about his father. Why didn't he see him since birth. He knows the situation of his family. He always dreams that his family will be complete someday.
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